Okay…ENOUGH!!…of the bullshit fairy tale…ENOUGH of the “James Bond chick”…that ended.
Anger, wrath & bitterness grew within me toward ‘Black Widow’ Slot/Slut machine. I somehow needed vengeance. SHE had not only STOLEN my money, she had also broken my F****NG toe.
Any bit of logic I had at that time…was NOT!!
Midnight became the hour I drove into the dark of night and descended into the ‘World of the ‘Machines’.
The excitement I vaguely remembered feeling when I first searched for those ‘green-blue eyes’ had been replaced by furious anger.
I BLAMED that ‘Bitch’ for bringing me there.
There was SO MUCH more to explore in this sadomasochistic “lair” of pleasure & pain. Why had I wasted so much on only her?!?
And so I left her behind & went in search of a NEW mysterious EXCITEMENT that awaited me somewhere hidden amongst the crowd.
In CONTROL of everything & everyone around me is how I felt when on a silver platter my first envelope containing large amounts of cash was personally delivered to me. I felt like ‘Joan of Arc’ galloping victoriously upon my horse after conquering an army .
My money had however surrounded me by the ‘Vultures’ & ‘Vampires’ living in ‘THAT’ world … lecherously sucking & feeding off whatever they can get.
In ‘THAT’ world there is no night or day, no yesterday or tomorrow, there is no existence of time.
Although I had left ‘Black Widow’ behind, her poison continued to pump through my veins … The more envelopes I received …the more 0000’s on the amounts was never enough.
I could not think of anything other than being in the ‘That World’… What else was there? My reality had become distorted. It was now just a perception. I was becoming a reflection of the toxic venom within me.
Who was I? What had I become? I was suffocating …I needed to breathe … I was slowly dying. I was NUMB!!!
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